Recently, I strongly feel that the Lord wants me to grow on loving His Word more and more. I have again the zeal to read the Bible from cover-to-cover and meditate on the passages I read. Not so long ago when I was a new Christian, I had this same eagerness until I let myself drift away and next thing I knew was that I had kind of dry spell in this area of spiritual discipline (you can read more about this here). But as I see it now, God allowed me to be complacent, lazy and be broken so I would thirst on His Word. I praise Him for that!
Gladly today, spending time with the Word is no longer just a filler or something I do when I have nothing else to do. It is natural for me to spend hours for my quiet time and always be amazed every time. Actually, I am more burdened if I rush because that means I am reading without understanding. You see, reading is easy but understanding is bringing the text to the mind and heart. Meditating God’s word is a huge undertaking and I give the Lord all the credit why I am able to do it. Even on this, I have my dependence on Him not on my availabity and ability!
Furthermore, for a couple of days now, I have been contemplating of memorizing Bible verses seriously. What is difficult about memorizing Bible verses? Well, in my grade school years, I studied in an Seventh-Day Adventist school where we had to memorize a lot of Bible verses to pass our Bible subject. My brain felt tortured and every exam was a painful experience. Though there is nothing wrong about this, as a matter of fact I am deeply thankful now as I look back that early on I had an exposure to the Scriptures. However, I think that I had develop an anxiety over Bible verse memorization. I feel that my memory will fail me every time and that I will associate the passages to the wrong chapter and verse references when I have too many already stored in my memory. So to be safe, I cared less of memorizing altogether.
Nonetheless, everywhere I look these days it seems that there is this voice telling me that if I truly believe the Word and know its worth, I shall start to memorize and keep them in my heart. Therefore, I have resolved that I should and must give it a shot! In doing this, three things are for sure: a) God will be honored and pleased b) I will be more equipped against sinning c) I do not have to do this to impress anyone.
Thinking all about this, I have nothing to lose but only to gain. I hope that the Lord will sustain me in my desire and enable me whenever I will be discouraged of my limitations. His grace is sufficient, I must not forget that!
How can a young man keep his way pure? By guarding it according to your word. With my whole heart I seek you; let me not wander from your commandments! I have stored up your word in my heart, that I might not sin against you. Blessed are you, O Lord ; teach me your statutes! With my lips I declare all the rules of your mouth. In the way of your testimonies I delight as much as in all riches. I will meditate on your precepts and fix my eyes on your ways. I will delight in your statutes; I will not forget your word.
Psalms 119:9-16 ESV
Soli Deo Gloria!